Lily's whole life has been dark. A dead mother, an abusive father, the constant feeling of loneliness, and feeling ostracized by her peers and community because of her unique situation. In the Boatwright house, she finally feels the safest she has ever felt, and has the beginning of a real family, though she is haunted by guilt for keeping secrets from August. She still wants her questions answered and is not fully stable in this place. Her safety could be taken from her at any moment. She still feels excluded by June and dark memories of T. Ray keep returning to her. She is recognizing now more than ever the racism in the South, especially because of her relationship with Zach. Lily feels all of these things pushing down on her at once, alone in the middle of the night in the pink house, and trusts that black Mary will now be her mother, and protect her as she lives in the "hive of darkness." SAVING BUGS (13, 85)
After living in the Boatwright house for over a week, Lily begins to slowly acquaint herself with each of the sisters. She notices that one of them, May, is extremely sentimental, especially in regards to household pests. As she watches May save a spider, Lily cannot help but be reminded of her mother who, according to T.Ray, was an absolute "lunatic when it came to saving bugs" 13. Lily, in order to honor her mother and her wishes, then decides to help May catch bugs around the house.